Naturally, I’m supposed to be studying for finals right now, but I've just had all these thoughts mulling over themselves in my head, pleading for release in order for my brain to focus on anything else… so here we are!
The last couple of weeks have been absolutely awful for rheumatism. For those who don't know, I've had a couple of serious knee injuries from sports, which left me with a touch of arthritis. I've been toughing it out, like I would do with anything else, it’s just a highly inconvenient pain! Having to sit down in one position for long periods of time while studying or working on assignments hasn't helped either, so I've kind of taken over the living room couch where I have a lovely view of the Christmas tree all lit up at night, and out the front window during the day. Hoping for snow soon so that the rheumatism will go away, the view out the front window will be a little more picturesque and a little less suburban, and the Christmas tree will look a little more seasonally-appropriate.
Speaking of Christmas, it’s really starting to creep up on us! I was fortunate enough to get my shopping done weeks ago since I’m not a big fan of the last-minute retail crowds. This will also be my first Christmas since I began to really consider myself a follower of Jesus, which is super exciting. I’m so grateful for how God was able to show me his face through the face of adversity this year, and guide me to the right people and places. Despite how unfaithful I've been to God over the years, he’s still been so good to me, and I feel like I might finally be starting to understand that. At this time last year, I was impossibly low—I couldn't leave my house without having a panic attack and I spent my days at home, either staring at the computer screen, trying to calm myself down, or crying myself to sleep in the middle of the day because I was so absolutely miserable. The fact that I've come this far in only a year is nothing short of a miracle. I feel more confident, empowered, grounded, and safe than I've ever felt.
I read something online the other day that really disturbed me. It was something like “faith is just an excuse to ignore the truth”. I’m a scientist. I know about the big bang theory and evolution and dinosaurs and a lot of stuff in between. Do I believe that they occurred/roamed the Earth? Of course! Are science and faith mutually exclusive? Absolutely not! The Bible and Christians have said a lot of controversial things, certainly, but so has science. The Bible hasn't been changed at all in the better part of 2000 years, whereas science is constantly being updated and changed. The way we look at Christianity has evolved though, and it means something different for every person, which is the absolute beauty of it! What isn't applicable to one person can change the world of another. The way we look at science hasn't changed much though; either you know it or you don’t—the more you know, the better you are, and the less you know, the less you are able to contribute to society. Naturally, in modern Western society, the quantity of what we know and the quality of our contributions to society are positively correlated (yay, math reference!), but shouldn't how we are spiritually count for something too? What about how we feel? Ok, that sounded a lot better in my head (like most things) but you can extrapolate a little bit to really see what I’m getting at.
Anyway, those are just some things that have been on my mind. 7 more days of solid studying and four finals until I’ll be back in Richmond Hill
Keep on keepin’ on, friends! :)
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